New beginning~~

The past months have been tough for me...like the roller coaster ride that goes up and downs so fast that you were totally caught off guard. I am really tired now...broken and tired to speak of...

I never expect much, hope of or even think of something I could get what I want...the more you wish it happens, the more depressed you become when you know it is just not meant for you...

It feels good the moment I told myself to give up...to let go of that pain and struggle...and now I know I am set free....

I don't want to know what's going on...but being so closely related I have to face it every now and then...can I really be this strong to face it all? Can I walk away and laugh it off? I am uncertain...

The level of forgiveness is the level of faith.

You still hold a place in me...

Spread Awareness, Not Prejudice

AIDS is arguably the most stigmatised disease in the human history. This is possibly why a country as rich and developed as Singapore is so reluctant to support its HIV-positive patients.

It is pretty amazing to know how many people have misconceptions about HIV/AIDS. In fact, with such advancement in the modern educational system, many people are still not as willing to learn about the disease, nevertheless to admit how wrong they can become. You have to know the right information and education before coming into any prejudgements over anything that could affect the lives of another person. If you are in their shoes, how would you think you will feel when people look at you like that?

The conference is truly an eye opener for me. It is really helpful.

Fighting for the rights for the AIDS patients is not something that can be done over a short period of time. And it is not an individual effort that can manage. Everyone has to come together, and be willing to stand up and speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves.

Will this ever be successful?

Pondering upon this question, it reminded me of someone -- Martin Luther King, Jr.

Quoting from one of his speeches:

"I have a dream that my four little children will one day live in a nation where they will not be judged by the color of their skin, but by the content of their character.

I have a dream that one day every valley shall be exalted, every hill and mountain shall be
made low, the rough places will be made straight and the glory of the Lord shall be revealed and all flesh shall see it together.

I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slave owners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood."

His legacy has lived on.

His dream has come true.

Today, we have our first African American President of the United States.

Having the chance to come close to them this year as a volunteer, I can finally feel how precious life can be when death can be so close to you. I can understand what discrimination can really mean besides its definition in the dictionary.

It can be frustrating to see what prejudice is being done on them. Yet, it is truly this positive anger inside us that motivate us to do what we can do best for them.

Fear Not

Somehow I don't want to think too much...just enjoy this moment while I can.

There is a special feeling and unspeakable joy hanging around like that.

Perhaps...well, we are still young and too early to say if there is any changes...right?

I believe it could work out...if this is meant to be...

Just one rule to stick to...and I won't give it up...not at all... =))

Feels so vulnerable...why?

We finally ended the 2-days retreat at Sentosa this afternoon, dragging our feet and our heavy load back home can be quite a tedious task too.

In a way, I am glad it is over as I am tired. Tired because we had so much fun yesterday night hanging around and enjoying the sea, playing UNO till super late at night. Oh wells... =P

I am enjoying at some time. Well...not at all in some times too. Especially...when I think about what is going to happen next.

It is not that you are fear of your future...for to me it was already planned. Just...well I don't know how to describe that feeling. Uncertainty? Clueless? ...Fear...?

I just found out that my primary school classmate is going to work in my firm as permanent staff...and what's more she is going to be in the same group as me! That is if I still stay in the same group...hmmm...what a surprise huh?

I don't know how it would be like. Really. Really!

I mean...I can still remember our childhood days in YNPS...studying together, how innocent and naughty we can become in those days...and see who we have become now? COLLEAGUES!!!

HMMM...perhaps I just cannot connect work and private life together for this reason...they just don't match!!! =S

Another part of me needs to be guarded now. I don't know where I am going. I need to hold back. This is scaring me too...hahaha...lol

Oh well...my secret shall not be revealed...if not I will just have to kill you...hoohoohoo... =P

喜欢你

我喜欢一个人。。。不自觉的。。。也不知道几时这种感觉来得这么强烈。。。
不应该的。。。却又好想见到他。。。为什么就是等他‘搬’了以后， 我才更怀念他和我聊个不停的情景？

。。。他也喜欢我吗？
。。。还是只有我的胡乱猜测？

我好希望那答案是‘是’。。。也好希望那是‘不是’。。。
。。。这全都是因为我们应该是不可能的。。。不可以的。。。

我没有勇气去问他。

我希望他永远都是我那位特别的朋友。
因为认识了他以后， 我有一种回家的感觉。。。好久没那么轻松自在了。。。

嘉葆， 别想太多了。。。‘是’与‘不是’都好， 你很清楚你只有一个选择：继续为他祈祷， 祝福他。。。然后忘了他吧。。。

New Hot Spot -- Pacific Cafe @ VivoCity (18/10/2008)

Fellowshipping at Pacific Cafe @ VivoCity has turned into our latest hot spot after service! =D Well quality time spent while enjoying our drinks...life is just so wonderful...hahaha...lol Lovely dearies -- Xinyi & Bao! Very serious business talk between the 2 IT smarties...hahaha...a place of common interest is also a place of new friendship! *wink* =) Flo is just so cute in this photo...being our new drink lady! =DD The swing is certainly one thing that attracts this bunch of childlike beauties to come back...again and again...ya? *grinz* =))

Dinner with my happy bride-to-be bestie Steph! (08/10/2008)

ROM gift for Steph...all the way from Vietnam! =DWhat's the need to spend on those packets of paper shreds from the art shops when you can make your very own FOC paper shreds from your office paper shredding machine!

But the price to pay? To carefully sort out the hundreds of pinky paper strips bits by bits... =X Nice lacquer ware handmade by the Vietnamese...wish I could go back there again to buy somemore for myself...hehe...lol *bleh* The card, the gift...they are all carefully chosen by me for my bestie ROM...for my present for you will be there to represent me while I am in Phuket... =))

Finally all wrapped up and ready to go to her hands! *wink*

The happy-bride-to-be STEPH!!! She is certainly glowing with radiance from the happiness of getting married even after a long, tiring day of work! =D

Best friends forever...juz missing Yingz who can't join us...love you guys! *muackz* =D

Welcome...back...?

Many wonderful trips have come and gone. Great times shared, beautiful sceneries for visual pleasure......these are more than what I would have asked for.

Yet coming back home now there is such an emptiness twisted from within. Is this the post-holiday boredom? Is it the mundaneness of my job (waiting endlessly for the transfer to take place and just counting down my days in the office)? Is it purely some kind of ups and downs feeling that I am having over my life?

I am so tired and dried up...wishing I was never back here and just indulge myself in the sun, the beach, the sand, the sea, and the fishes forever......

Phuket is lovely....2 days are not enough at all...

So many photos to filter and arrange for before I can blog about them...well stay in tune then... *wink*

F1 Grand Prix Singapore 2008! (26/09/2008)

Lewis Hamilton & his McLaren Mercedez F1 racecar! Nice poster of the F1 team @ Suntec! I guess gambling is just popular leisure among Singaporeans...so wanna bet who will win the F1 race Singapore? =DModel of the F1 VillageLooks so real that you can race a mini toy racecar here too...hahaha...lolModel of the technician working on the F1 cars at the pit stand

Mini F1 race or preview??!

Hahaha...well just manage to snap this photo while the persons-in-charge are playing with the toy racecars here...looks real ya? =PEntering the F1 Village through Gate 4 @ Padang

Welcome to F1 Grand Prix Singapore! =))Two good friends with the same interests at heart! *grinz*

Tenhnician team waiting by the side for any emergency assistanceViewing F1 race from PadangI am so glad and blessed to be here...thanks dear for the tickets! *muackz* =D

F1 cars are so fast (travelling at >200km/h) that it needs skill to take their pictures...wooh...

Video of F1 cars zooming past from Padang

This cool mini satellite mobile TV control that shows the F1 race is for rental at about $100...everything in here comes with a price manz... =X

Overpass @ Gate 4Grandstand @ PadangMap of F1 Village

Due to F1 race, the skyline of Singapore becomes brighten up these few days...beautiful isn't it?Roaming around...The fountain looks exceptionally beautiful tonight...hahaha...lolFood & F1 merchandise stalls can be found everywhere in the villageF1 Singapore Official MerchandiseModel of Lewis Hamilton and his McLaren Mercedez F1 racecar...I want one too!!! =(F1 merchandise are like super branded goods that is trendy and cool to have...and perhaps a symbol of wealth to own one of them I guess as they are very much overpriced too...The sea of hot red Ferrari merchandise draws the most crowd among the other stalls Curve near the memorial statue and City HallF1 cars usually slow down a little here so you will get a better view tooLove to see them make the smooth swift... =)Ferrari -- F. Masa!Capturing more F1 carsWatching the F1 cars zoom past us is quite an enjoyment for me!Two hot babes at the F1 race! *wink* =P

So many F1 cars yet still not getting enough of them! =D

Video of F1 cars at the City Hall curveThe enthusiastic crowd waiting with their cameras to snap the best shot of their favourite racecars...how interesting to people-watch here too...hahaha...lolBao & I at the curve

Say CHEEZE! =)

Ferrari flag!!!Love this shot of us taking photos with the FERRARI FLAG!!! =D

Met a few "scary" F1 performers around -- Mr Spiddy & Miss Fly...from Singapore Flyer?? =PBao is scared to take this photo with me wor...coz she doesn't want to have nightmare later on with Miss Masquerade...muahahaha...lol

Miss Starry-Head spotted the parazzi (me) and posted for the photoshoot...THANKS! =DRow of the antique carsI love these antique cars too! =)Looking at the antique cars...I seem to be able to feel the great advancement of the world in contrast to the world fastest cars racing around here...can you feel it too? =)The narrow bridge that increase difficulty for the F1 racers stood quietly and still in the night...just for this moment... =))I have assimilated as a tourist tonight! =DThe group of technicians who spotted me taking photos of them...ooops! =PEsplanade looks stunning with the well-lit F1 trackOverlooking the F1 Village from the other sideJust love the bridge

=)Taking snapshots everywhere now before the race starts again...My artistic photo of the track...nice right? =DSingapore CBD at nightWell I love our CBD at night too! =)Concert playing at the Esplanade Outdoor Theatre for the F1 crowd

Cyril Niccolat playing contemporary pop and soft rock music...nice... =)

Video of the band playing some rock music

Watching F1 race from outside Esplanade

This turn is a big challenge for the F1 racers at such a great angle!

F1 car in green, white and blue...forgot the brand but it is sponsored by Earth Dreams

Different shots of the different F1 cars

F1 car in white and red

Renault F1 cars in white, dark blue and orange...sponsored by ING...

F1 cars in blue and red...sponsored by Red Bull...

BMW F1 cars in white and navy blue...one of the most stylish and coolest cars I find here for the night...hehe...lol

Lenovo F1 cars in white and black...the most posh and stylish race for my taste! =P

F1 cars in white, red and orange

Sorry I just can't recall or figure out what brand and who sponsor this car manz...oops! =P

Ferrari F1 cars in the sybolism bright red...one of the most popular team and brand among the crowd as people would cheer or wave to them when they passed us...so coolz... =D

F. Masa is racing in the Ferrari car! =D

Saving the best for the last as McLaren is my most favourite team in the F1 match...especially with Lewis Hamilton in the group, the F1 champion who is only 23 years old and win the race in his FIRST F1 year!!! =DD

McLaren Mercedez F1 cars in silver and orange...so COOL! =D

Video of F1 cars turning at the curve near Marina Hotel

Video of a small hiccup of F. Masa during the practice round

Just be patient with the start of the clip though as I was trying to record the laser wordings shown on the top of the hotel before I realise what happened before me...geez... =))

F1 experience is truly unforgettable and great precious chance to view these world's fastest cars in action....I just love them!!! =D

You certainly need to put on the ear plugs as the sound is totally deafening! I actually thought that watching these cars zooming past us rounds after rounds would be boring and tiring...BUT it's not at all! They just look really cool and smooth as the make the quick, elegant swift turn and move in a speed of lightning on the straight road...well...it is just hard to put it in words that SHIOK (thrill) feelings unless you were there to feel it for yourself! *wink* =P

Thanks dear for the extra ticket that I am able to come and watch the race. This is really a very precious ticket to me as money can't buy them now since they were all sold out!!! I feel so so SO BLESSED!!! *muackz* =DD

Thank you Jesus for the wonderful experience! =)))