Taiwan Youth Camp 2008 -- Praise & Worship Songs Lyrics

The Indonesia worship songs are making quite a great influence these days over CHC, or probably christians outside Indonesia. I was listening to the True Worshippers CD that I bought from the Attributes Private Sale on last Sat and I just love all their songs! Many of them had even been translated into english and chinese! I even recognised quite a number of the songs were actually sung during the Taiwan Youth Camp! Their songs truly rocks! =D

So here's just a few songs that I have fallen in love with during the camp. They were sung in English during our service but I guess I still prefer the Chinese lyrics...for the time being. =P

Hahaha...enjoy! *wink* =)

PS: You can search the guitar chords at the forum from http://www.guitar4christ.com/ using the Indonesia song title...truly great songs for quiet time! =DD

Dalamnya KasihMu Bapa

我何等愛你阿爸天父
你無條件為我付出
犧牲愛子叫我得贖
你愛充滿我

主你寶血為我而流
洗淨我罪給我自由
你的愛是何等偉大
喔主耶穌

一生要讚美
我美好救主
你的愛是我生命全部
一生要敬拜
我親愛天父
你無條件的愛
讓我心得滿足

Walau Seribu Rebah
[Listen audio @ http://www.imeem.com/jkiagape/music/6XkN-jBr/walau_seribu_rebah/]

我从来不曾怀疑过 Mercies that rise with the new morn
到底你有多么爱我 Set me apart as a new born
我生命里的每一分钟 Each moment I live, by faith I believe
都有你看顾着我 With You I'm never alone

有的时候黑暗临到 Darkness may come, trials seem so long
有的时候巨浪狂风 You are the light I depend on
我心依然满有平安 Through valleys and storms, Your word keeps me strong
因为有你看顾着我 My shelter, refuge and song
我的主 I trust in You

不管前面道路有多困苦 Everyday I live ,I know You are my God
耶稣你永远是我的帮助 I lift my face and look to you my God
只要有你在我身边永远都看顾 Even when the mountains tremble, And a thousand fall
我必能一路永跟随我的主 I will stand with You, My Jesus, Take my all

Hati Hamba (Servant's Heart)

我永远不会忘记 Standing in awe of Your grace
主你那丰富恩典 Setting my feet in Your ways
如今我在天父怀中 Entering into Your presence
因为你舍下自己 To behold You face to face

你不看我的过去 God of all heaven and earth
只是完全接纳我 Holding me in Your embrace
主你的爱何等伟大 Unfailing love that surrounds me
我的心完全融化 Oh God I stand amazed

我亲爱救主 My Jesus, My Lord
我心何等感谢 You're the love of my life
你单单在意 Wherever You go
我这爱你的心 Wanna be by Your side
我愿一生 No longer I
追求跟随我主 But Christ living in me
谦卑为你服事这世界 Serving You for all eternity

我亲爱救主 My eyes set on You
我要一生敬拜 In this race that I run
在我生命中 No longer my ways
你是唯一的爱 Let Your will be done
毫无保留 Make me a servant
我愿献上所有 My heart's ever true
何等渴慕能为你而活 Clinging to the cross, I'll follow You
耶稣我主 I'll follow You

Ku Kan Terbang (I Will Fly)
[Watch video @ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v80Efwnfeog]

主祢的话语 YOUR WORD IN MY LIFE
是我脚前的灯 IS A LAMP ONTO MY FEET
祢应许 AND YOUR LOVE
照亮我未来所有道路 SHINING BRIGHTER DEEP INTO MY HEART

主祢的真理 YOUR TRUTH IN MY LIFE
引导我的脚步 BRINGS ME CLOSER TO YOUR STRENGTH
当我全心等候 I WILL GIVE YOU PRAISE
主必叫我得力量 WITH ALL OF MY HEART I WILL SING

I will fly high AND I WILL FLY
尽情地遨翔 HIGH ABOVE THE CLOUDS
有祢同在 RIDING THE SKY
我必不困倦 LIFTING YOUR GLORY
主祢话语 LET ALL THE EARTH
维持我生命 WATCH US LIVE IN LOVE
祢的平安 PRAISING YOUR NAME
永远在我心 AND FLY ALONG WITH YOU

祢道路，永远高过我的道路 AND YOUR WAYS, ALWAYS HIGHER THAN ALL MY WAYS
主祢意念，永远超越我的意念 AND YOUR PLAN, RISES HIGH ABOVE ALL MY PLAN
祢真理，释放我脱离了捆绑 AND YOUR TRUTH, SETS ME FREE FROM ALL OF MY CHAINS
我要带着祢话语 LET ME WALK WITHIN YOUR TRUTH
行走我一生道路 LET ME FLY ALONG WITH YOU　

Mujizat Itu Nyata

全能的神你能力无限
有了你万事都有可能
纵使大山在眼前
你也能够挪去
在你绝对没有难成事

主每当我软弱无力
你的恩典够我用
只要我能够相信
奇迹必会降临

不靠才能
不靠势力
依靠神灵的能力
只要我全心呼求
奇迹必会降临

只要坚定来宣告就有奇迹
坚定 相信就必会成就

Taiwan Youth Camp 2008

My cell members, Tina & Andy, and our cell group leader Bro Darren [far left]!

[More photos coming up in the next entries when I have consolidated the rest. =P]

My FIRST mission trip to help out at the Taiwan Youth Camp 2008 is finally over! Serving God in this camp for the past 10 days was truly an amazing experience for me. I love serving Him...and I love coming to this camp to see how God works in the hearts of the Taiwanese youth there.

Throughout the camp I have many encounters with God as I was serving in the camp. Most of us played many roles there as pastor wants the Singapore team to overlook the whole camp. I have served as an usher, security (catcher), counsellor, station master, preparing food etc. Pastor Kong was the preacher for both camps that I went to and every session there makes me feel like I am back on the weekend services at expo! The presence of God is strongly felt in the hall and everyone was in joy and on fire for God's words and during P&W. I just love and enjoy being there...feels like a sponge absorbing God's presence and soaking in presence of the Holy Spirit.

There were many deliverance and laying of hands during the first 3 sessions. I had no experience of ministering to others before...not to mention on how to counsel or what to do during the deliverance meeting. In fact, I was the one being ministered by others most of the times. Well, those who came for this camp would have missed the Mike Connell deliverance session that weekend at Expo. So somehow, we got to see the deliverance session done on these youths in Taiwan by pastor Kong! It was just amazing!

For Taiwanese, unlike in CHC, there is a rule that brothers will catch brothers and sisters will catch sisters. So for the Singaporean sisters, we learnt how to catch the falling sisters during the deliverance sessions. Well, I won't say we catch well but most of us manage the skills pretty fast enough. And truly by faith, I went to help out as the catcher and also counsellor for the sisters there.

Honestly, I didn't know I need to pray for the sister even after I caught her and lay her on the floor. Not until I saw many others counsellors and sisters doing so. So likewise, by faith, I pray in the spirits as I look around for anyone that I need to pray for.

My eyes caught a girl standing and crying right behind the row of sisters and brothers who were lying down on the floor. I asked her if she need to go forward to be prayed by pastor and she told she already had. I was about to leave her there when I felt very strongly that the holy spirit was telling me to pray for her. So without knowing what to pray for, I had my arms around her shoulder and one hand on her forehead and started to pray in toungues. After 5 minutes or so, she manifested and collapsed on the floor. Well, this actually taken me aback for a while as I didn't expect it could have happen for I was just praying in toungues for her. Yet, it was very obvious for me that God is indeed using me right now to pray for this sister. So I carry on with my praying in the spirits and eventually it became more clearer to me how I should continue to pray for her to get the spirit out of her.

When I finally finished praying for her, I will never forget that expression she had on her face as she opened her eyes. Let just say...you know how the author like to draw those happy faces in the comic? The ones in which the eyes are huge and sparkling, and their mouth would break immediately into a big wide grin? She has exactly of that happy smiling face even though there is still tears in her eyes at that time!

The girl, shorter than me, got up and almost jumped onto me and gave me a tight, squeezing hug! Gosh I tell you I almost wanna cry in joy with her at that moment too. It is obvious that no one else but the presence of God could have touched her heart so strongly at that moment and insert a new joy into her life! I truly thank God for using me that night because it felt so good to be God's servant! In fact, when Bro Darren brief us about how to minister to the others and what to do as we pray for and lay hands on them in Camp 2, I actually did the 'process' correctly even before I was taught on how to do so! =) It was then I am even so much more assured that God was using me and giving me that wisdom to do so. And I just feel so happy! =D The experience edified me and increased my confident and trust in God as I no longer fear to go forward to minister to others in the other two sessions, thinking that I might not be good enough to be used by God.

From the Taiwan youth, I was pretty much affected by their love and joy for God, their hunger for God's words. They also love our Pastor Kong very much and he gained much of their respect. And this brought me to realise how lucky I am to be in CHC that I get to listen to pastor Kong preaching ever so often! =D

From them, I also learn to be more open up to express my joy for God. You know when you bring out that joy you have for God, it actually affect the people around you as well and if they are as happy as you are in God's presence, they will also learn to express that joy out and this joy can even felt much stronger by doing so! =D During the first camp P&W session, everyone in the hall is like jumping and waving and praising God so joyfully. I can't help but to join them too and I feel so much more alive! God is wonderful and God is great! =DD

This mission trip truly recharges me and has given me an experience that I will never forget. It brought me another level closer to God and deepens my desire to continue to serve Him even more as the encounters with Him are just so wonderful and I wish I could have more and dwell in them much longer! =D

It just touched me to see how God is working in the hearts of the youth in Taiwan by using Pastor Kong and CHC over there. It will be such an amazing thing to see the new generation of Taiwanese youth raising up and bring forth a revival in every parts of Taiwan in the future! =D

I wish I can go there to serve in the camp again next year.

I want to go for more and more mission trips.

I want much much more God's presence in my life.

I WILL FLY HIGH!!! =DDD

Here's the Chinese version of Hati Hambar (Servant's Heart) by Sari Simorang. The song was sang again and again in Chinese throughout the camp. I just love this song so so much...the lyrics is certainly my cry for God right now...主你的爱何等伟大让我的心完全融化...

我永远不会忘记

主你那丰富恩典

如今我在天父怀中

因为你舍下自己

你不看我的过去

只是完全接纳我

主你的爱何等伟大

我的心完全融化

我亲爱救主

我心何等感谢

你单单在意

我这爱你的心

我愿一生

追求跟随我主

谦卑为你服事这世界

我亲爱救主

我要一生敬拜

在我生命中

你是唯一的爱

毫无保留

我愿献上所有

何等渴慕能为你而活

耶稣我主

PS: Who knows of the Chinese praise and worship songs sang in the camp? I don't know the title of the songs but part of the two songs I am looking for are:

(1) “。。。I will fly high 尽情地遨翔...有你同在 我不会困倦。。。” &

(2) “。。。主每当我软弱无力 你的恩典够我用 只要我能够相信 奇迹必会降临。。。”

Pls let me know the lyrics or where I can get them ya? Million thanks! =D

Servant's Heart

I have made up my mind at last.

This week, Monday to Friday, I will be fasting and praying for the events that are going to happen, for the events that have already happened.

I had tried fasting during the 21-days prayer but it wasn't very successful. The temptation of food is juz tough on me, someone who loves eating. In fact, after that 1 week of fasting and praying intensely, the final week of prayers was the toughest as I lost my concentration and growing tiredness.

I am not blaming myself for this though. Just that since I have made up my mind to be consistent and to cling on to the cross no matter what, I really have to have spiritual discipline in my life too. And since it didn't work out last week, this week I will try again, and the next, and the next,......and till the time it has become a part of my life. Yupz... =)

I am going to pray for my mission trip to Taiwan. I truly thank God for the blessings he has showered upon me. In fact, it was a miracle I am going, not just Taipei but also now Kaoshiung! =D Let me just tell you how amazing it is......

This was initially a trip that I let go of because of financial difficulties at the beginning of the year. I truly have a very strong desire to sign up but I thought it was impossible for me to raise $1K at least within like...3 months?? Yet, when Tina turned up and signed up for the event, I was prompted once again. I fasted a day and prayed for it. Whether it was my desire to go to Taiwan, or it is the prompting from the Holy Spirit to have faith to go ahead and signed it up, the thought of signing up the trip become very much stronger. And what's more is that it is getting more and more realistic.

Tina, my very good friend and sister, confirmed that prompting by encouraging me to have faith in God. If you truly have the heart to serve God, don't be limited by the minor issue like money which there are ways you can solve it. So I prayed and fasted a day before I asked my mum if she could lend me money to go for the trip. And surprisingly, she agreed to lend me to a maximum of $1,000! That really helps me quite a lot as I know by this year end, or even by Oct this year I should be able to pay back the full sum. Oh well, I really have to tighten my belt quite a bit when I returned from the trip though...

Yet what's more amazing is what God has granted me even more. I thought I would just be satisfied and contended to serve Him in the first Taipei youth camp. After all, this is all I could afford as I HAVE to limit myself to spending less $1,300 for the whole trip. So I thought of giving up to Kaoshiung even though I really really REALLY want to go and join Tina and Andy.

Well, that is I didn't expect Darren would call and eventually help me get sponsors to go to Kaoshiung! Hahaha....coz I was still reasoning with him then how much I need to pay if I juz extend a few days in Taipei and backpack and how much it will cost me to travel to Kaoshiung. The price to pay is more than double. And now...my dream has come true...YEAH! =DD

God has blessed me even more than what I can imagine! What I know I need to do now is really to treasure this precious chance that I have, go serve Him for his work in Taiwan with all my heart and soul, and look forward to a even more closer encounter and experience with Him that I know it will impact me for a lifetime...amen... =DD

I am also going to pray for my ministry. I will be starting my First Hand visitation today after work. I really want to be a blesser to the patients there as well as to have the attitude of a great servant.

I am going to pray for my cell group. Some of them are sick and Dom's grandfather just had stroke too. May there be healing work to be done upon him.

I am going to pray for Daddy too. He is at Sze Chuan right now for his recruitment work. Though the condition there has improved, I still cannot help but to have a little worry for his health there. May God protects my dad in wherever he is and may his work be fruitful.

The prayer list will just go on and there are so many things to pray for...hahaha...lol

God is great, all the time; all the time, God is great! =))

End off with the lyrics of the new song that we sang during last Saturday service. I was very very touched by it as that's what exactly what I want to do for God right now...

Thanks Xinyi to send me the whole lyrics when I just asked her for the title to it...thanks sweetie! =D


Servant's Heart
Intro
G / / / Em7 / / / D / / / D / / / G / / / D/F# / / / Em7 / / / A / / / A / / /

Verse
D Dmaj7
Standing in awe of Your grace
G/D Gm7
Setting my feet in Your ways
Bm7 A
Entering into Your presence
G A
To behold You face to face

D Dmaj7
God of all Heaven and earth
G/D Gm7
Holding me in Your embrace
Bm7 A
Unfailing love that surrounds me
G A
Oh..God I stand amazed

Chorus
D
My Jesus, My Lord
Dmaj7
You're the love of my life
D
Wherever You go
Bm7/A
Wanna be by Your side
G
No longer I
Em7
But Christ living in me
D/A A
Serving You for all eternity

D
My eyes set on You
Dmaj7
In this race that I run
Bm7
No longer my ways
Am7 D
Let Your will be done
G
Make me a servant
Em7
My heart's ever true
D/A
Clinging to the cross
A
I'll follow You

G D/F# G A
I'll follow you

Apologize by Timbaland

"Apologize" by Timbaland

......

"I wish I could say apologize to the things I have done in the past,
Amend them if only there is a time machine.
Yet it is already too late now,
And I have let you down...


What is done is done and there is no turning back,
I have let it go now.
What is ahead of me is waiting for me to mould them now,
And this time I tell myself:
'I will never have to apologize to you again...trust me.'"

Hate That I Love You

Hate That I Love You - Rihanna & NeYo

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]

That’s how much I love you (yeah)

That’s how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah)

And I can’t stand ya

Must everything you do make me wanna smile

Can I not like you for awhile

No..

[Ne-Yo:]

but you won’t let me

You upset me girl and then you kiss my lips

All of a sudden I forget that I was upset

Can’t remember what you did

But I hate it

[Rihanna:]

You know exactly what to do

So that I can’t stay mad at you

For too long, that’s wrong

[Ne-Yo:]

Girl, I hate it

You know exactly how to touch

So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more

So I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]

And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah)

I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you)

And I hate how much I love you boy (ooh)

But I just can’t let you go

And I hate that I love you so..

[Ne-Yo:]

And you completely know the power that you have

The only one that makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]

Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I

Love you beyond the reason why

And it just ain’t right

[Ne-Yo:]

And I hate how much I love you girl

I can’t stand how much I need you

And I hate how much I love you girl

But I just can’t let you go

And I hate that I love you so

[Both:]

One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me

And your kiss won’t make me weak

But no one in this world knows me the way you know me

So you’ll probably always have a spell on me..

[Rihanna:]

That’s how much I love you

How much I need you

That’s how much I need you

That’s how much I love you

That’s how much I need you

[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]

And I hate that I love you sooo...

And I hate how much I love you boy (Hey)

I can’t stand how much I need you (I can’t stand how much I need you)

And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...ooh)

But I just can’t let you go (But I just can’t let you go, no)

And I hate that I love you so

[Both:]

And I hate that I love you so.. so..

When you hate to love someone, it's because you know it will take all of you to love him...

If Only Through Heaven's Eyes

What an old song...love it as much still... :)

"If Only Through Heaven's Eyes"

by N'Sync

I never thought you were a fairweather friend
You never let me down, you're true to the end
You’re in the darkest hour, when all was lost
Somehow you left the light on
You faced the wrong and showed the world a thing or two
Stood up for me, for you
And you should know

Some say it wasn’t worth the things we went through
I say it ain’t worth losing you
I hope you know how much you’ve changed all our lives
Someday you’ll see if only through heaven’s eyes

I still remember the things that you said
I keep your words alive I could never forget
Cause in the final hour you made me proud
So proud that I could know you
You told the world its time that they believed in you
You stood for right and truth
And you should know

Some say it wasn’t worth the things we went through
I say it ain’t worth losing you
I hope you know how much you’ve changed all our lives
Someday you’ll see if only through heaven’s eyes

Only through heaven’s eyes...

And so we can’t forget
We’ve got to keep remembering them all
The ones who took the fall
They did it for us all
And we should learn from it
Stand up if you believe in it
You’ve got to face the world...be strong

Some say it wasn’t worth the things we went through
I say it ain’t worth losing you
I hope you know how much you’ve changed all our lives
Someday you’ll see if only through heaven’s eyes

How To Save A Life

Actually I DON'T watch the drama at all! :P But I love both the songs it plays in its Season 3, Snow Patrol's "Chasing Cars" and The Fray's "How To Save A Life". The lyrics is great and the tune is nice...love it! :))

"How To Save A Life"

The Fray

Soundtrack of the drama Grey's Anatomy

Step one you say we need to talk

He walks you say sit down it's just a talk

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right

As he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best

Cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defense

Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you've told him all along

And pray to God he hears you

And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things

He will admit to everything

Or he'll say he's just not the same

And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

"Guitar chords for this song available here:

http://www.ultimate-guitar.com/tabs/t/the_fray/how_to_save_a_life_crd.htm"

All I Ask of You

A beautiful song that touches my heart...never get enough of it... :)

All I Ask of You -- The Phantom of the Opera

RAOUL
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
Nothing can harm you.
My words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
Let daylight dries your tears.
I'm here,
With you, beside you,
To guard you and to guide you.

CHRISTINE
Say you love me,
Every waking moment,
Turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me,
With you now and always,
Promise me that all you say is true,
That's all I ask of you.

RAOUL
Let me be your shelter,
Let me be your light.
You're safe,
No one will find you,
Your fears are far behind you.

CHRISTINE
All I want is freedom,
A world with no more night.
And you always beside me,
To hold me and to hide me.

RAOUL
Then say you'll share with me,
One love, one lifetime,
Let me lead you from your solitude.
Say you need me with you here,
Beside you,
Anywhere you go,
Let me go too,
Christine, that's all I ask of you.

CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with me,
One love, one lifetime,
Say the word and I will follow you.
Share each day with me,
Each night, each morning.
Say you love me. . .

RAOUL
You know I do. . .

BOTH
Love me,
That's all I ask of you. . .

Anywhere you go,
Let me go too,
Love me,
That's all I ask of you.

王力宏 -- 一首简单的歌

这世界很复杂，
混淆我想说的话，
我不懂太复杂的玩法。
什么样的礼物，
能够永远记得住，
让幸福别走的太仓促。
云和天，蝶和花，
从来不需要说话，
断不了依然日夜牵挂。
唱情歌，说情话，
只想让你听清楚，
我爱你是唯一的倾诉。

写一首简单的歌，
让你的心情快乐，
爱情就像一条河，
难免会碰到波折。
这一首简单的歌，
并没有什么独特，
好像我，
那么的平凡，却又深刻。

我一直在思考，
让你了解我的好，
却忘了常常对你微笑。
失去的，忘记的，
我会尽力去弥补，
你是我最珍贵的财富。

Jesse McCartney - Just So You Know

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

And I dont know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

This emptiness is killin' me
And I'm wonderin' why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

"Growing in fond of his songs each day... :)"

Walk Apart

Today's BS was cancelled again. Guess the lesson has been postponed for about two weeks now. It juz happened so often that my timing and Shuhui's timing doesn't fit each other. Well, hope that next week will be better off ba. :)

Watching Full House again nowadays. The show still touches me as much as before. I guess a love story that never come smooth seems to be the theme of every korean dramas. And the morale behind it? The same old line -- "True love never run smooth."

Valentine's Day is approaching and being single, I have to confess I don't really look forward to it. That day will remind me of certain past that I doesn't want to recall. No matter how sweet they are, some dreams are just never meant to come true.

I remember those sweet Valentine's Day when I spent with my other half then. Or not only that day itself, but many other times. My other half in the past used to call me HMW...what it means I won't tell the others. I love those bouquets of flowers, those expensive gifts, and those nice dinners at the exquisite restaurants. But they are not the things that can touch me much deep within.

Sometimes, when certain things have passed so long but yet you can still remember them clearly like yesterday, these are the things that really move you or make you truly happy. All I remember of that relationship now are those dinners when we bought food packets from Carrefour and sit by the fountain and happily enjoy our duck rice together. There is another time when we bought cups of instant noodles from 7-11 at Sentosa and have them on the beach. Making rice dumplings with his family, simply sitting there and listening to music together in his room, or even accompany him with his family for dinner or back to camp are juz so much better than shopping or watching movies. All these are the little details in life that are left unnoticed. Yet they seem to be the toughest times to be forgotten.

Watching Full House now reminds me back of all these. Little details in life truly can bring two persons together, being there to know each other, to listen to each other, and even being there for the other person are so much more blissful than trying to do something out of it. That's why Ronan Keating will sing "you say it best...when you say nothing at all."

Almost 2 years have passed now and I always thought I have forgotten about them. But yet I realise I haven't. I didn't know about it myself too. I guess I have tried so many times, yet it still failed. I know it will still hurt if I know he will see someone new. Yet it even hurts me so much more when I know he tried to love someone yet it doesn't come out the way he wishes it to be. I have no idea why. I guess I just wish for nothing more than to see him with someone who can make him a much happier person than he was with me. Seeing him happy will make me happy too...isn't this what love is all about? Hahaha...I don't know what I am thinking of now...hahaha...but I know God knows what I am saying...

Looking on the bright side...I will be leaving on 16th Feb to HK to see my parents...YEAH!!! :D And there will be a CNY service on the 15th Feb...the day before I left for HK! Hahaha...everything seems to come right for me on time...whoopie! :P In everyone's eyes I am an independent person, yet I can also be a daddy's girl who simply desire for a family dinner. I envy those who have dinners with their parents every so often. For me, family dinner is rare and only comes in a few times a year. I love them so much...and I miss them so much too. If I have my own family next time, I will make sure to be a loving wife and mother for my family and never let any work or other things to disrupt the love in my family.

Tomorrow has only one lecture and AA206 project discussion after that. There will not be any cgm tomorrow due to Pastor Ulf service on the weekends. Going to the career fair with Vic, Zhiwei and TS. Hahaha...I wonder why I actually want to be there now...juz a bit interested to take a look still...see how ba... :P

Love the song below. Haven't gotten anytime to share it with you guys. Love it as this is how friendship goes sometimes. Cheers to friendship! :)

Walk Apart by Jamie Michael

You keep coming to me, but all you bring is your agenda.

You keep preaching to me, but I don't hear you getting no clearer.

You get a little colder, and your face is so unkind.

Do you ever wonder what your mother's left behind?

We are only people, and people walk apart.

But hold my hand and understand, that this could be the start.

Of something really changing, changing for the good.

I'd go together to the end, with you my friend I would.

So you keep praying for me, when I don't even know your religion.

And you've been planning for me, but all I see is your indecision.

"Love can never be the same taste twice."

At The Beginning

This is a song for all my friends.

Thank you for being there for me when I am in need.
Thank you for bringing love and joy in my life.
Thank you for bringing light into my world when it is dark.
Thank you for simply being my friends. :)

At The Beginning by Richard Marx & Donna Lewis

We were strangers
Starting out on a journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are
And I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
At the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you

We were strangers
On a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true,
Now here we stand
Unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
At the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you

Knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me, alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing's gonna tear us apart

And life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
Life is a road, now and forever
Wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you

And life is a road, and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep going on
Starting out on a journey
Life is a road and I want to keep going
Love is a river I want to keep flowing
In the end I want to be standing at the beginning
With you

I need strength

Safe in a crazy world by Corrine May

I try to smile my tears away
I try to keep my cool
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
trampled and bitter
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
believing in me

It feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain to the
Theatre of my dreams
I stumble and I crumble and I'm
sinking to my knees but you
You cradle me

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again

Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's
on a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the world I seek

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world

'Cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again.

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again

I am tired. I need strength and guidance from you Lord. God, pls catch me if I ever fall.

周杰伦 -- 退后

This song has become my e-worms after yesterday karaoke session. I like such soothing melody. And I realise Wang Lee Hom's songs are great and he is one great singer, songwriter and he can play so many instruments! :D Hahaha...guess I start to like his songs more and more now. But then...here's the song by Jay Chou that I would recommend...hahaha...enjoy! :)

周杰伦 -- 退后

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

Walking down the path to freedom at last... :)

Today service was another day that I learn something out of it. It talked about faith. Pastor Kong used the story of the 10 men who are healed from leprosy (Luke 17:11-19) to illustrate on God had healed us through our faith. Jesus asked these ten men to show themselves to the priests in the churches in order to be healed.

To many of us, if Jesus asked us to go to the churches then and show ourselves to the priests, we would certainly feel there is no big deal about this. But to these ten men with leprosy, this is a very tough task for them as they are forbidded to have any contact with anyone, being quarantine to their own compound and wait to die.

Going to show themselves with leprosy is the worst thing to happen because the priests at that time act like our police force nowadays, catching on such people who may spread their disease to the rest of the people around them. Hence, when Jesus asked them to show themselves to the priest, it is really a matter of great faith that they have on Jesus and believing in him as the messiah to save them.

So what happen to the ten men with leprosy? Well, I guess some of you would have guessed by now that they are healed indeed (or else pastor would not used this as an illustration on faith...hahaha...lol) Their faith for Jesus to be the messiah they are waiting for had saved and healed them from their contagious disease. :)

We must know that the devil always attacked us at our own image, reinforcing doubt in our mind that we cannot do this and that, let us have doubt on our capabilities to achieve great success ourselves. If any of you have this feeling, well here's what I learn today to rebuke on that:

"What you act upon, you will reinforce it."

Simply said, if you act upon worry, you will reinforce worry; if you act upon faith, you will reinforce faith. If you keep thinking you are a failure, you will be SURE to live a life in failures. Hence friends, that is why God wants us to renew our minds again and again everyday.

Don't wait for things to come...go and create your own future. There is a reason for Jesus to ask the men with leprosy to "go and show themselves to the priests". Jesus is trying to tell us that we should always turn to our churches and pastors and cell group leaders for help when we are in trouble. The house of God is always the place where we will be healed and our church leaders are the God's servants who we should seek for help and guidance.

There are times we might be disappointed by them if they seemed like they couldn't help us, but then, no one is perfect ya?! At least, even if they didn't help, I believe they have already provided us with many good advices that will help us get another step closer to God. :)

To end it off, trust God for guidance and believe in Him that he will healed us from all pains. We should not always just wait for things to drop on us too...this is not the way God wants us to get help from him. If we need help, just go and look for him and do according to what he told us to do...and to believe if him.

"Far Away" - Nickelback

This time, This place

Misused, Mistakes

Too long, Too late

Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance

Just one breath

Just in case there's just one left

'Cause you know,

you know, you know

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I miss you

Been far away for far too long

I keep dreaming you'll be with me

and you'll never go

Stop breathing if

I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask

Last chance for one last dance

'Cause with you, I'd withstand

All of hell to hold your hand

I'd give it all

I'd give for us

Give anything but I won't give up

'Cause you know,

you know, you know

So far away

Been far away for far too long

So far away

Been far away for far too long

But you know, you know, you know

I wanted

I wanted you to stay

'Cause I needed

I need to hear you say

That I love you

I have loved you all along

And I forgive you

For being away for far too long

So keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore

Believe it

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and, never let me go

Keep breathing

Hold on to me and, never let me go

"Anyone who listens to the word but does not do what it says is like a man who looks at his face in a mirror and, after looking at himself, goes away and immediately forgets what he looks like. But the man who looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues to do this, not forgetting what he has heard, but doing it -- he will be blessed in what he does."

~ James 1:23-25

"Journey" by Corrine May

Never realise how beautiful this song is until I hear it again and again. Somehow, there is an urge for me to look for the lyrics as I listen to it this time round. The music of this song is pretty Corrine's normal style...nothing much stand out from the rest of her songs. BUT, it is the lyrics that really touch my heart...pretty good for you to use it for your own quiet time...lol Wanna share it with you guys...maybe you will understand what I mean after reading it...God bless everyone! :)

Journey by Corrine May

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you

"If anyone want this song, give me a tag or msn me ya? *hugz* :)"

(Another Song) All Over Again -- by Justin Timberlake

This song is from Justin's new album "FutureSex/ LoveSounds" (Not a very nice title hor? :P). Hahaha...like Brian says his song is one of those that you will like it more as you listen to it more....hahaha...lol So this is the very few slow songs that I like (or my music style is changing le...hahaha..lol). Some people says that the lyrics tells what's weighing in your heart...but this lyrics shouldn't apply anymore to me ba...lol I am more attracted by his way of singing slow songs though...hahaha...so enjoy ya? :)

And don't miss Evanescence's "The Open Door" too...they are still my all time favourite...esp the song "Sweet Sacrifice", "Call Me When You Are Sober"...& also from the album "Anywhere But Home", the song "Breathe No More" is great! :D Hahaha...love them more as I listen to them more...hahaha...lol

PS: Don't believe all that is said in the lyrics though...of coz it is always great and heartwarming to have a second chance to start things all over again...that is like a dream come ture...but some things will just never be the same...haiz...so treasure whatever you have now ya? *wink* :)

God bless to everyone! lol


You've been alone, you've been afraid
I've been a fool
In so many ways but I would change my life
If you thought you, might try to love me
So please give me another chance
To write you another song
And take back those things I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over,
Again

I'm not a saint
I'm just a man
Who had heaven and Earth
In the palm of his hand
but I threw it away
So now I stand here today asking forgiveness and if you could just please
Give me another chance to write you another song
And take back those things I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over
Again

Little girl you're all I've got
don't you leave me standing here once again
Cause I'll give you my life
Yes I would
If you would let me try to let me love you
So please give me another chance
to write you another song
and take back those thing's I've done
Cause I'll give you my heart
If you would let me start all over
Again

Again, oh,no no ohh

You know I love you, yeah
give me one more chance
No no, no no no no

If we hold on together

Was reading my friend's blog and I found this song. Like it because it is just so soothing in times when you are troubled. God really gives us the option to choose in our life, a path that is not easy to walk. When you put your feet on the path, you walk happily and then you come across junctions. Then God will ask you to make your choice. And you decide to take this path, your heart will start to question you. But you know that in the end God will still make things right for you, just don't know how long it will take. So all we can do now is to be patient and wait.

Sometimes really it takes all your strength to hold on to the dreams that we initially have. Many will fall back along their ways, many will forget what are their initial goals of life. But true enough, if we believe, our dreams will be fulfilled.

Yup yup...heading to Bing's 21st birthday party later...wonder if her house is big enough to hold everyone...haha...lol

Don't lose your way with each passing day
You've come so far, don't throw it away
With believing, dreams are for living
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story, faith, hope and glory,
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Deams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by, for you and I

Souls in the wind must learn how to bed
See how the stars hold on to the end
Valley mountain there is a fountain
Washes our dreams all away
Words are swaying, somebody's praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

When we are out there in the dark
We dream
In the dark we feel the light
Warm our hearts
Eeveryone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
Where clouds roll by
For you and I

"Hold on to our dreams with belief and faith."

The heart has reasons which reason cannot understand...

Tough times since school started. Even when you don't have lessons, you should never be too contented with yourself for you never know there are actually more work waiting for you...

I got an individual assignment which is due today before 5pm. Haha...given I have only 2 days to complete it on my own...tough tough... :P And I just checked my NTU email to find out that there is another online assignment due by tomorrow midnight...worse is that it is both individual and as a team, which is that my team members all seem so busy to even have a time to discuss about it...sigh...well...I guess things will come to solve by itself eventually before the deadline ba...haha...lol But nevertheless, I can probably only start working on this assignment tomorrow when I return coz I still don't understand what it is all about and I would probably bring the instruction and the case back home to read later on...busy busy busy...haiz...

Somehow I kinda miss going to service today. The message will be on marriage again given by Pastor Kong. Haha...I hope sunday will come again soon so I can go to service again, something I look forward to every week now...something that makes me feel great as long as I am in the presence of God...yeah! lol

Like the little book "Happiness Is" by Rev. Dr. A.R. Bernard, always feel happy again after reading it...haha...lol Life is indeed meaningless if there is no goal in our life, no sense of direction. I thank God for He has provided me with the vision in my life, a direction for me to go. Wherever I am, I know He is always there for me, my friend and my counsellor, who will never leave. Glad to know You right from the start, glad to have that chance in my life where my door is opened for You...thank God for everything... :)

Just wanna share another song that can't get out of my mind these days...haha...God bless!


Glorious Redeemer by Christian City Church

I love you with all my heart
Trust you with all I have
For you hold the heavens and earth in your hands

You die on the cross for me
Took all my sin and shame
Your name is holy, exalted above all names

Glorious redeemer
You have paid for my life
You have gone before me
Now I walk by your side
I lift my hands to you Lord
You are worthy of all praises
Jesus reigns
Jesus you reigns

"Human heart can be complicated yet as simple as it seems..."

Music heals the soul...

Today is another day with not many happening events (only look forward to the service at night by A.R.Bernard...so stay tune ya?) Haha...so I probably can share with you all my love for my music? :P

When I was young I like to listen to Chinese songs as I could only catch what the Chinese singers were singing then. You can guess how bad I am in speaking English. So I make a decision to improve my English by changing my lifestyle such that most of them would be involved with some English as well. This was what I learnt from my scholars friends back in DHS who refused to speak to you in Chinese even though you don't know what they are speaking. Slowly, I watched only English dramas and movies, listen to English pop music, and speak English more to my friends. Haha...and now I listen more of English songs to Chinese songs...haha...

Sometimes your preference of music also differs as your mood swings. When you are depressed, you would want to avoid any sad music coz they would make you want to cry. When you are tired and probably just back from work, you would want to turn on some soothing melodies so you can have a good rest. When you are happy, you might want to blast yourself with some loud music that can brighten up the whole atmosphere and probably make you wanna dance a little.

In my music world, I probably have to thank Brian for he lent me many of his CDs (I would return them back to you when I found them...sorry...) and for influencing me and teaching me how to play guitar. To me, you can never live without music. If there is no music in your life, you probably live in a world that is just black and white. Still remember the lyrics from the song "Let The Music Heals Your Soul"? It goes like this in the chorus: "Let the music heals your soul...Let the music takes control...Let the music gives you the power to move any mountain..." Indeed, you know what so nice about watching those movies with romance, love? Don't you realise everytime when the lovers inside couldn't see each other or they are looking for one another or simply they fall in love, the music comes. Without it, the effect of the romantic atmosphere would not be significant. Without it, the audience would not be moved by the stories and teared. Music is something that is neccessary for our souls...

In the early morning, I would play some Christian songs before my quiet time and to feel fresh and warm by His love for the day. I would practice a little of strumming on my guitar in the morning whenever I am free or don't have lesson that day. In the afternoon as I study for my work, I would tune into some English pop or rock or rap or just music that will wake you up...haha...so I would have enough energy to last me for my work. At night, I would just turn on some soothing melodies or anything that makes me feel relax and happy...and can put me to sleep! :p Haha...that's how much I love my music in my everyday life...and how much I appreciate it in my life...welcome to my world! :P


Let The Music Heal Your Soul
by Nsync, Arron Carter, Boyzone, Backstreet Boys, The Moffatts

Oh, if someone writes a song with a simple rhyme,
Just a song
Where his feelings show...

And if someone feels the same about this simple song
Oh, and sometimes,
you can hear them say
music gives you happiness or sadness
But it also, it also heals your soul...

Let the music heal your soul
Let the music take control
Let the music give you the power to move any mountain

Oh, if someone plays piano
With some simple chords
Symbolic and endearing too

And know if someone plays guitar with the old piano,
Then maybe you can hear them sing
Music gives you happiness or sadness
But it also, also heals your soul
Oh yes...

Let the music heal your soul
Let the music take control
Let the music heal your soul
Let the music heal your soul
Let the music take control..