Over for the time being...

Thank God for my last presentation as a student is finally over this morning. And indeed it ended in a nice way...hahaha...lol What's next for me now is to concentrate on my last AA306 quiz and my exam which is coming in about 3 weeks' time.

Initially, I intend to join Terry they all for the dim sum at Chinatown tomorrow. But after talking to Zhiwei yesterday before prayer meeting, I think I really should sacrifice that outing. Now, I am really looking forward to studying from morning at the airport tomorrow until service...hahaha...hope I can clear my doubts for the consolidation as much as I can before the quiz...yeah...lol Really thank God for Zhiwei for studying with me so early too...and glad that God uses him as an usher now...hope you never give up and continue to grow strong in Him... :)

This morning I am really touched when my neighbour bummed into my room to offer to take me to see doctor. Thank you dearie and I am much better now. But still pls pray for me coz it juz haven't recovered at all...juz that at least for today it didn't go worse again. Hope that I can be physically strong and healthy till the end of my exam...time and health are way too precious for me at this critical moment...and thanks to all who are so patient with my grumbles... :P

Well, mum called me again this afternoon that she needs to go back to HK next Wed...to settle some matters there. Somehow, I feel pretty emotionless now. This is not really a good sign coz I know my heart is hardening now. But I can't help it.

I feel much more like a student studying abroad, away from home and my parents. Except I am in my homeland and my parents left me here. And THAT feeling is really lonely and helpless. It is not like what many others overseas students' kind of excitement for a new experience in their life. But I know I won't be defeated...at least for now I can still stay strong...well I have always been an example of independence to others isn't it? :P With God I know I can...and pray that I will stay strong in my own stand... :)

Not blaming anyone here. In fact, I am more worried for mummy. Hope she is not too tired by running errands like that. Oh God, please take care of my mummy for me...let her not feel tired and to be able to take of herself there too...

Anyway, I am finally going home tomorrow! It's been close to 6 months since I have returned to my house and stay for a night there...happy and be glad about it... :)

"If you are ever tired, do drop me a message so we will both have company...*wink*"

我是真的病了

我已经病了一个月了，或者我的病不严重， 但却从没完全康复， 我真的好希望有人来帮我一下， 一下就好。。。为什么就没有人来问我呢？

但我也了解其他人的工作繁忙，我真的好自私哦。。。我到底是干嘛了？

我好害怕每天起来不是一直咳嗽， 就是头晕晕的， 真的好难受。。。神呀， 救救我吧! :(

我真的好辛苦。。。

All I Ask of You

A beautiful song that touches my heart...never get enough of it... :)

All I Ask of You -- The Phantom of the Opera

RAOUL
No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here,
Nothing can harm you.
My words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
Let daylight dries your tears.
I'm here,
With you, beside you,
To guard you and to guide you.

CHRISTINE
Say you love me,
Every waking moment,
Turn my head with talk of summertime.
Say you need me,
With you now and always,
Promise me that all you say is true,
That's all I ask of you.

RAOUL
Let me be your shelter,
Let me be your light.
You're safe,
No one will find you,
Your fears are far behind you.

CHRISTINE
All I want is freedom,
A world with no more night.
And you always beside me,
To hold me and to hide me.

RAOUL
Then say you'll share with me,
One love, one lifetime,
Let me lead you from your solitude.
Say you need me with you here,
Beside you,
Anywhere you go,
Let me go too,
Christine, that's all I ask of you.

CHRISTINE
Say you'll share with me,
One love, one lifetime,
Say the word and I will follow you.
Share each day with me,
Each night, each morning.
Say you love me. . .

RAOUL
You know I do. . .

BOTH
Love me,
That's all I ask of you. . .

Anywhere you go,
Let me go too,
Love me,
That's all I ask of you.

Blessed me!!! :DD

My dear neighbour, Hanjie & Me! :D

Hanjie's bf, Lincoln...he came all the way from the other block to celebrate with me k...THANKS! :D

And that's me with the card from the girl and the cake! :DD

Well, maybe you should surprise me when I look prettier next time k...hahaha...juz kidding...lol

The best thing to start off my birthday is a surprise call. I thought it was my mum calling as my phone has no caller ID again. And guess what...it's Brian calling all the way from US!!! :DD Chongyu, juz wanna let you know I am really touched by it! Hahaha...THANK YOU so much for your call manz...hahaha...I am just so happy to hear from you! *bleam* :D So SORRY you got to put up with my complaints about my work...oh manz I should have made better use of the call...dummy me... :P

Unknowingly, there is more than the call that makes me so happy. Right after I put down my phone, my neighbour and her bf gave me a birthday surprise!!! :DD Got a delicious birthday cake and a lovely card from Hanjie...THANK YOU gal and love ya! *muackz* :D You're also my sweetest and healthiest neighbour ya? ~from ur cutest and laziest neighbour k...hohoho...lol

And I juz found out I got a project mate who has the same birthday as me juz now too. Hahaha...I guess we would never find out about it if you really never ask me gal...it's really destiny that brought us together...lol So HAPPY BIRTHDAY to you too, Huiqi! :D

I feel really blessed manz...thank God for having you all in my life...lol *touched*

"The greatest gift is not found in a store nor under a tree, but in the hearts of true friends. :)"

Growing old with you...

Watching Teri & Ian, being eliminated from the Amazing Race is kinda saddening to me. I like this old couple lots ever since they ran on the previous race. And what impresses me most is their relationship and love for each other.

Very often you get to see the pairs in the Amazing Race will come across conflicts when things go wrong for them. Teri & Ian is of no exception. But what I like about them is that at the end of the race, whether they win or not, they will still appreciate the presence of the other person. Those words is really sentimental, touching and inspiring.

Quoted from this episode after they were eliminated, this is what they commented:

"We're going home to our families, our children, to continue a great life. Teri's the love of my life. She's always been there for me. I wouldn't want to be in life without her." Ian remarked.

To this wonderful sentiment, Teri simply added. "Ian loves me like no one else can."

Time may not be the best unit of measurement for love and relationship. But time certainly plays a great role in the understanding of one another, and the appreciation you have for the other person to be in your life.

At least, this is true for Teri & Ian.

Well, isn't it just wonderful to have someone travelling around the world with you, overcoming obstacles together, and at the end of the day you can share all your joys and your sorrows together, laughing your heads off and having a comfy shoulder to lean on? And the best of it is to be able to grow old together with that person, looking at each other's wrinkled face and spending the rest of your days reminiscing about the things you do together in the past?

Well done guys! *wink* :)

"More on Amazing Race: All-Stars can be found here: http://www.cbs.com/primetime/amazing_race11/"

It's HOT here!!!

Even my hammies know how to keep themselves cool for their naps. Singapore is juz getting way too hot manz...even the two fans in my room don't help much at all... :(

And thanks Joanne for your call! :D Hope you have fun there in Thailand...miss ya gal! *hugz* :D

Phantom of the Opera!!! :DD

Phantom of the Opera @ EsplanadeYingz & EugeneThe show begin! :D

Taken during intermission.
Looking at the props, the chandelier...well you will know how much effort is put in this show...and how fantastic it can be...
Yingz & Me :)

Phantom of the Opera is a spectacular performance that beyond words can describe. The story, the songs, the props, the costumes, the characters...the images of them still as clear in my mind as I was watching it. More of what I gained from the show is the pondering of the dark fate of the phantom, the love he has for Christine and the love of Raoul and Christine. It is really meaningful, heartwarming and moving me to tears again and again.

I sympathise with the phantom's tragedic life yet I wonder what changes he could or can make. He is a character that many of us can learn from, or tried to avoid becoming one. The story touches me most on the last part when the phantom let go of Christine so she can be with Raoul, and in return Christine let him know that he is not alone. This is how love should be isn't it?

Love is not to be possessive to have someone in your life, but more of the values you place upon this person, even if it means to be able to make the other person happy or fulfilling their dreams at the expense of your own happiness. How much you put in determines the value you have for this person. I admire the phantom for his unselfishness here. What for to force her to choose and to lie to him in order to save someone she loves instead? And true enough when he learn to love Christine in this way, in return he was rewarded with her kisses that he knows he will not be alone and soften his heart.

I guess this just says it all about love -- the more you give, the more you receive.

I don't know what else to say because the show is still ringing in my head and thoughts are running through my mind again for the characters of the story. It is not juz a great musical performance, but more of another valuable lesson that you can learn through these characters... :)

And THANK YOU Yingz and Steph for the birthday celebration and the prezzie...I love them!!! :)

"Love Can - A container that can only be filled when you pour out its content. ~ my winning quote :P"

Another birthday celebration! :D

This is a weird photo to start off with...hahaha...but DON'T BE MISTAKEN!!! :P Believe it or not, the above package is actually MARSHMALLOW! :DD

THANKS to Bavis who brought it back from Taipei to share with us...love ya gal! *muackz*

Here we are @ Nana Thai Restaurant (Far East)

Left to right: Daphne, Dennis, Justin, Chris, TerenceLeft to right: Jaz, aka, Me, Bavis, DaphneLeft to right: Alvin, Weng, Bernard, ChrisA sumptuous dinner served! :D

But soon I realise most of the dishes are spicy.

So here I am eating most of the sweet and sour pork, rice and pineapple rice...and they still taste pretty good sia...lol3 people in the same cell group...

with birthdays falling on the 3rd month of the year...

and exactly goes in the order of 3 consecutive days!!!

[Bavis (25th); Bernard (26th); Me (27th)]

Destiny has certainly brought us here together manz...lolOur BIRTHDAY CAKE!!! :DDMay God's blessings be among us...and may our birthday wishes come true... :)Look at Bernard's reaction! Hahaha...I wonder if he is too taken by surprise for his cuff links, or he likes it lots, or...well...simply otherwise?! :POur birthday prezzie! :)

THANK YOU GUYS!!! *hugz* :D Thank you to my cell group for the pair of red heels...I am so amazed that you guys actually know my size! :D

Thank you to Bavis for the shirt, chocolate and postcards from Taiwan! Even I only know you for such a short period of time, it seems like we know each other for ages...thank you so much for having you in my life...lol Hope you can join me to go Europe ya? Love ya! *hugz* :))

It is yet another wonderful birthday celebration for me in advance! Hahaha...lol It has almost been a year now that I have joined CHC. So many things learnt, so many changes made. The past year really means lots to me with you guys in my life.

Thank you for everything. :)

That's ME! :P

You Are An ISFJ

The Nurturer You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal. A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways. In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music. You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for. You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

What's Your Personality Type?

I miss rock climbing... :X

Manage to dig out this photo as I went through the photo file again. Somehow, I have missed out lots on my past hobbies --> Rock climbing and mountain trekking (The Tahan days... :/).

Now, I seem to be growing more and more like...my hammies! Gosh... :X Hahaha...wish I can pick up this old hot favourite of mine again...soon...lol *wink*

MY Birthday Celebration! :DD

MY & Vincent's Birthday celebration @ MOF My Izakaya! :P

Do you know that MOF is stand for "Ministry of Food"???

Cool sia...lolCelebrating yet another birthday year in my final year with the hall people...somehow it feels a bit she bu de... :/A nice meal to treat myself better on my special day... *grinz*The main courses are good and the seafood toji set I order is really worth trying again. *wink* :P

But the highlight of its menu is the DESSERTS!

They are really unique, simply irresistable and yummillicious...hahaha...so hard to describe them...lolMy strong recommendation: Mocha Imo!!!

[Vanila ice cream toppled with green tea syrup, red bean paste and deep fried sweet potato...YUMMY!!! :DD]We play a game such that the loser will eat a salad with the wasaba paste...and guess who got it?! :P

Hahaha...you can tell from Tze Shuuan's face if he really enjoys it...lol

The remnants of our feast...gonna miss the good meals soon...sigh... *pout* :X

Ya I know my big days is still 10 days away...hahaha...so there is still time for anyone who forgot about it ya? :P Hahaha...juz kidding la...lol I will juz be as happy as ever...or maybe I should be sad since I am getting much older??? *Oops! :P*

THANK YOU guys for celebrating vincent & my birthday together! And to have such a wonderful dinner before our exams! :D We will do our best for this semester together too ya? *GAMBATTE!!!* :P

In a few months' time, many of us will be in different parts of this world le. I wish our friendship will still be as strong as ever and to continue such great gatherings together manz...yeah! :)

"Treasure every moments now and live life without regrets. :)"

I am CONTAGIOUS!!! :X

Having bad flu over the past few days, which seems like it will never recover. My eyes are infected again and I can't put on my contacts...grrr... :( Anyone know of any super effective flu medicine and eye solution???

AA206 quiz is tomorrow...wish me lots and LOTS of LUCKKKK!!! Hahaha...lol

Europe trip is finally settled over the past few days. Taking the Trafalgar tour as the Contiki ones are full. Time schedule is as follow:

11 May (Fri): Leaving Singapore at 2300h by British Airway.
12 May (Sat): Reach London Heathrow airport at 0525h.
13 - 19 May: On a 7D6N tour on my own to France, Switzerland, Germany and Holland. Will go back to London on 19.
20 - 24 May: Visiting Huiling in Warsaw. :)
24 - 26 May: Going to travel with the girl to Prague...gonna meet Daryl there as well. :)
26 May - 13 Jun: Budapest -> Vienna -> Salzburg -> Venice -> Florence -> Pisa -> Rome (Vatican) -> Brussels -> London -> Glasgow -> Scotland -> London.
14 Jun (Thu): Departing London at 2125h.
15 Jun (Fri): Return to Singapore in the afternoon.

And then I will start my work in 2 July! :) Have two weeks break before I finally enter the workforce...probably will pick up my guitar, piano and oil painting in those free time ba...lol Yeah...something to look forward to at the end of my journey as a student. Hahaha...sound like a super sadddist...lol

Oh I am so happy to know that you guys are attached!!! :D Hahaha...especially when I know both of you...lol *wink* Glad for you guys... :)

"JIAYOU!!! lol"

Lonely?! No way!

Juz wanna share with you all what I have come to learn over the past week, after struggling over my own tireness, emotions and confusion. The chat with Chris, the message during cell and the sermon from Sy Roger have moved and inspired me much more than I would have imagined. This is the joy that I have received. Hope you will understand what I see.

I realise very often, many of us would see ourselves in our own world or voicing out that loneliness in our hearts. And many times, I saw that from my christians friends, saying that they yearn for relationship, yearn for companions. Isn't this ironical when we are supposed to have God with us???

Take an example of the movie -- 50 First Dates. Drew Barrymore acts as a girl who suffers amnesia ever since her accident that she will forget everything every time she wakes up the next morning. How often have we forgotten about God's miracles in our lives soon after he had done them?

It is easy for us to fall for many other things in life. For those who are still single, it is natural for us to fall for pretty and wonderful ladies and gentlemen out there. The word "crushes" would be the favourite word to describe such relationships. But even though we may be attracted to many others, we must never forget to keep our vow and our covenant with God when we have made that decision for Him to enter into our lives.

In the bible, Jesus never say you cannot be gay. Jesus only tell us to WALK with him and remains holy. God is not ashamed to be your master even if you have an interest to watch porn every now and then. But God will be BITTER about your decision. He is even more bitter when you have decided to continue with your addiction.

Frankly speaking, I am not someone who have crushes easily. Not that I am emotionless, but rather I believe to love someone means placing HIGH values over the person I love. And I would affirm these values by sharing my joy with him, by making out my time for him and to care for his needs.

Because the way we treat people indicates how much we value them. It also applies to how we treat God. These few days I am concerned for a friend. One day, she has made her decision to dedicate her life back to God and she made it clear that she will hang on to her decision. And on the next day, she decided to skip service for a test. Does it mean that the test is of higher value than God's words?

In the movie, Adam Sandler plays as a man who falls for Drew despite her amnesia. And everyday he will come up with something so she will fall for him again. Because this is how much he value her in his life and how much he loves her. God is just like that! He will not give up on us just for the flaws we have in ourselves. Drew eventually marries Sandler and she will wake up every morning to watch the video to remind herself of the wonderful memories of yesterday. Did we remind ourselves of what God has done for us today?

I have been through such a stage too. Who is not busy here if you are looking for success in life? My friend has told me once that it is all right to concentrate on our studies first because it is the purpose we need to fulfill now as a student. Well, that is only half-true from what I have discovered.

Of course we need to work for our good results. But how much time does a service take? You can always study at other time but service only happens for that 2 hours plus once a week. Your revision schedule can be changed but your time with God cannot be changed. Are you supposed to change God for your revision? Or are you supposed to change your revision for your God? Which makes more sense???!

I would not say I am any better because I had given up God for my studies, for my projects as well. And many times I have made the decisions to keep close to God but again and again I have failed because of the high value I placed upon my exams. Yet I am NOT satisfied with such a lifestyle. Truthfully, I cannot stand such a lifestyle and fickle-minded thinking. I am simply not satisfied. I have to know if God is satisfied with me.

Because there will always be other people richer than me, smarter than me, more successful than me, and even more spiritual than me. If that is the case, I would not even be qualified to enter God's kingdom!

But God is wise. He does not think of us in this manner. The voice of the world may have make us believe that we are never good enough. Why would you think God made you? He made us with a purpose. And if we know we have come with a purpose to be in this world, we are much bigger than many others in this world.

DON'T believe that you are bad and you should run away from God. No matter what happens, run BACK to God!!! Like we would run to our parents for help when we are still little children...

There are many idols in our life. Idols do not take form but they capture our attention in our lives. This means that our work, our studies, our family, our ministry can become our idols. But how many idols can we have?

Tell you what, we can have as many FALSE idols as there are, BUT there will always be only ONE true idol in our lives. If we follow the false idols, our life will never be great because false idols never understand us. ONLY the true idol will come to our needs and help us when we cry out to it. That's how we define idolism isn't it? So the question is WHO is the TRUE idol in your life today?

Up to today, I had often struggle with the fear of loneliness. I have often feared if people know about my existence. I fear if people remember about me. When my big day approaches, I fear if anyone remembers about it. One of Landy Wen's songs will clearly shows how I would feel if that happens.

Yet right now I feel freed from those struggles. Yes maybe I would fall back to them again but I have come to grow stronger and learn more to prepare myself from falling back into where I was. I know I have God with me. Remember Ruth's story in the bible? After she had lost everything, she had no hope and no future back then. While every other daughter-in-laws leave the place, she decided to stay back. Instead of dwelling in sadness, she has chosen to dwell in the presence of God. [Because many other places around are not godly anymore] In the end, she met a very rich and nice powess and she became his wife. For a widow who has nothing left, what is there to attract such wonderful person who wants to marry her? Think about it...

I have learnt most of what I said from Sy Roger today. At first, I was surprised and a little turn-off by his feminine gesture and his high-pitch voice. Sometimes, you have to understand that the image a pastor gives can have quite a significant impact on what he preaches as well. It will affect the receptivity of the audience. Yet as I listen to his sermon, he addresses every issue of the challenges we are facing with very spiritual and correct thinking that we should have. In my mind, I was like "Yeah he is so right I NEED to change!". Moreover, with his testimony of being a homosexual person in the past, it feels like he is not a pastor but someone there to share with you what he has come to learn from God through the things he has gone through.

Yah...I am not satisfied. I want to change. Like Chris said before, this is not done by ourselves alone. It will only be done with a group of christians who put in the same effort as well. We definitely need to motivate and encourage one another once we sense someting happening on someone else. We are not loners but a family. Pray for me for my determination to hold on to God.

Thanks for reading it because it shows you care to lend a listening ear. Always remember that we will never be alone. :)

"Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards."

Hall Post CNY Dinner! :D

My favourite photo for the night!

We should all jump up and shout in joy for such a wonderful dinner!!! :DD On our way to Jumbo @ Kallang waterfront by coach...

...even we are super hungry, we will never forget to take some candid shots! :DDThe long awaited CNY dinner together!We are like a group of hungry ghosts...any food place on our table is gone within minutes!!! :P Entertainment for the dinner are singing performance, as well as games in which Libing kena sabo...haha...lol For $10 we get to eat all these dishes at Jumbo...worth it isn't it? *drool*

And we got to "lao" yusheng once again!!!

Hahaha...does it mean we are all going to prosper twice in the pig year?? :P Tonight is CNY dinner as well as CAB dinner.

And every year, someone will receive the colour award they deserve for their participation in the IHG.

Yuen Kit has received the special award for her years of passion to play for our hall in the IHG games...she certainly deserves it! :D

Clockwise from top left: The gals @ the Tanjong Rhu bridge; NBS Final year; A photo of Joe and Yuen Kit matching nicely with the background...hahaha...lol ; The gals @ the playground...never too old to appreciate the things of our childhood ya? :P

The dinner has finally come to an end but the night is still young.
This is the last hall CNY dinner for some of us...gonna miss these moments together...*sobz*

Counting down to the days I am leaving this place.

Trying to create more happy memories to be brought back home in the future to last me a lifetime.

Thank God for these wonderful 3 years together. :)

"Next and final hall activity to look forward to -- Senior Farewell Dinner!!! *bleam*"

Perseverance

Got the message from the fortune cookies that my friend gave me...the message certainly comes at a great timing for me at this point of time. :)

These few days I have been thinking about what Bro Chris said back on Sunday when he talked to us. I was blurred then, too saturated with so many things back there in my mind. He had highlighted that I wasn't spiritual enough and I need to rise up, to dedicate myself to God for the next 3 months. I know about it and still there is dryness in my spiritual life. I wanted to change but I kinda lost myself to this world, to my studies and work.

The past few days had been a disaster for me. I was so nervous that I kinda flung my AA306 presentation on Monday. Today was yet another presentation for me for AA206. And tomorrow the big quiz of AA306 will come into the picture. I am so tired, so so so tired. Frankly speaking, I feel like a sheep without sheperd right now. Totally lost.

Up to now I have no idea where I can go next. I need to rearrange my life. I need to focus on what I need to focus on. Can I pull through all these things? I know I can't do it myself without God's help.

Thank God that there are still things I can look forward to like Emerge and my Europe trip in May. I AM telling myself to work hard and persevere through juz these two months, for the enjoyment and satisfaction that I can get from my trip will justify the work and effort I put into my studies right now.

I remeber Yehui has asked why now then that Bro Chris need to talk to us about success, about dedicating ourselves to God for these next 3 months, and why not earlier or later.

For me, I understand the reason.

It certainly comes at a good timing for me at this point of time that I am starting to lead my life on my own. I need to find my way back to God without falling off from the track soon again.

Thank God for speaking to me through Bro Chris.

"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. ~ Galatians 6:9"

CNY @ HK! (17-18 Feb)

Victoria Harbour

This is one of my most favourite place in Hong Kong. :) It is the PIG's year at last...mine is soon to come...lol
Star Walk / Peninsular Hotel of Hong Kong -- It is a representative of Hong Kong with its rich history and it high price tag / "Lao Pok" Car from FordMy family reunion dinner @ Genki Sushi

Hahaha...I LOVE this unconventional family dinner manz...*bleah* :P

I LOVE my family!!!

Thank God for blessing me with such wonderful parents...*grinz* :DD

First day of CNY @ Taipo Centre

The CNY atmosphere at Hong Kong is FANTASTIC!!! :D Most of the shops are actually still opened on the first day of CNY...which is kind of different from Singapore where most of the shops will be closed then. It feels really good to be there at last.

And the most important of all is that I am reunited with my parents! :D Hahaha...nothing beats that family love in this festive season. *wink* :)

Day 1 (19 Feb) @ Macau [Part 1/3] -- Casinoes > Lisboa Hotel

MACAU!!! :DDThe uniqueness of Macau is that there are casinoes EVERYWHERE!!! Guess which animal year do I belong to? :PDaddy's and mummy's animal year are here too...lol

[Hint: They are standing next to them! :P]@ Lisboa Hotel, which is owned by the famous "King of Gambler" Stanley Ho

These are the ornaments placed along the corridors and lobby of the hotel.

The ornaments are simply manificent. Some of them even has very rich history background.

I feel like I have just enter a Chinese history museum more than a hotel...so cool...Even I don't stay here, I feel kinda superior just standing around this place...hahaha...lol This is the NEW Lisboa Hotel...only the casino section is opened yet as it is still under construction.

Strings of crystal are hanged around the ceiling of the pillars...very classy...

The hotel seems to have a theme on lotus or most probably a 风水阵 in which the Chinese believe to help to boost their luck and prosperity...

Macau is simply made up of casinoes. It is small and most of the places of interest can be reached within walking distances. I have not come to Macau for over 20 years. This is gonna be my first time going into the casinoes manz...YEAH!!! :PP